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I had a dream
One day I woke up and I was in it
I never spoke of my love’s beginnings
Bangkok life, blending with nights that never finish
I never thought our light could diminish
Images of each minute I cherish
Reminisce from our first kiss to marriage
Birth of kids, baby cribs and carriage
Lineage that our children inherit
Chatuchak Park was the start
We embarked on this journey of the heart out the dark
I was blind but now I see
Took some time to find mine
That’s how life be
Can you feel
Can you still feel my love
You woke me up
Can’t you see (Can’t you see)
Can’t you see you’re all I dream of
I won’t give up
Can you feel
Can you still feel my love
You woke me up
You were the image in my mind’s eye
The image of beauty I couldn’t see despite how I tried
But then the stars aligned and two souls combined
I left the cold behind and old scars resigned
You woke me from a nightmare, where
The world didn’t fight fair, rare
To truly find the right pair, prayers
That we can be each other’s light here, swear
Can you feel (Can you feel)
Can you still feel my love
You woke me up
Can’t you see (Can’t you see)
Can’t you see you’re all I dream of
I won’t give up
Can you feel
Can you still feel my love
You woke me up
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2. |
Lost (feat. Mia Farah)
02:49
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I finally know what love is now I lost it
Let it go, when did my eyes become a faucet
Relationship went down the drain like many droplets
Your heart was opened up to me, but then you locked it
I asked to give me one more shot and
You went and threw away the key, I couldn’t stop it
I was just trying my most
Apologize in the post, but I choked
And you went ahead and blocked it
Unfriended, unfollowed, unwanted
Unworthy of your love, this time I really done it
I’m getting blunted to take away the pain
Writing in vain, I’ll remain out here waiting in the rain
(Lost love, lost love…)
You couldn’t be loved
And now I’m lost, cause I couldn’t be loved
What was the cost, cause we couldn’t see love
It was our loss that we thought that
That we couldn’t be loved
(We lost love, lost love…)
And yo, this shouldn’t be us
I know we fought, but it shouldn’t be us
We tied the knot, but it shouldn’t be us
I know there’s love, huh
But it shouldn’t be us
Gihi gugma ko ikaw is running out
I’d beg and bow but that’s really not my style
I was just trying my most and
I’ll drown in this ocean
Of all these emotions swirling round
My world is upside, I’m heaven bound
And back in my hometown they’re flipped around
You used to be my ground, gave you a crown
And now I wonder how…
How…
How…
How…
That where my heart was, there’s just a void now
(Lost love, lost love…)
You couldn’t be loved
And now I’m lost, cause I couldn’t be loved
What was the cost, cause we couldn’t see love
It was our loss that we thought that
That we couldn’t be loved
(We lost love, lost love…)
And yo, this shouldn’t be us
I know we fought, but it shouldn’t be us
We tied the knot, but it shouldn’t be us
I know there’s love, huh
But it shouldn’t be us
(Lost love, lost love…)
And yo, you couldn’t be loved
And now I’m lost, cause I couldn’t be loved
What was the cost, cause we couldn’t see love
It was our loss that we thought that
That we couldn’t be loved
(We lost love, lost love…)
And yo, this shouldn’t be us
I know we fought, but it shouldn’t be us
We tied the knot, but it shouldn’t be us
I know there’s love, huh
But it shouldn’t be us
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3. |
Auto-tune
02:42
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Ay, ay, auto-tune it
Ay, ay, auto-tune it
These rose colored glasses keep me from going insane
Auto-tune my life, mitigate my strife
Dopamine my brain
I don't see no world
Just filters on filters on filters
I don't see no girls
Just surgeons who filt her and built her
What happened to soul?
Just hide behind my phone, in my own zone
And the hole in my heart's as big as the one in the ozone
So alone
Solo and so low
But you'd never guess when I'm looking my best
In the photo, oh no
I can't do it, but I came through it
Like I can't sing, so auto-tune it
I might lose it, but I'll get through it
Like I can't sing, so auto-tune it
Ay, ay, auto-tune it
Ay, ay, auto-tune it
I can't do it, auto-tune it
I can't sing, so auto-tune it
Live in Makaybalay
But I reside within my mind
Living in paradise I realized
That my problems' deep inside
Never satisfied
Got tears behind my eyes just waiting to cry
And since reality lied, it's the pixel light
And the joystick by my side
I wish that joy would stick though
My only control
X, Square, Circle move the TV window
A little indo sure to invoke
Feelings of bliss
Maybe I'll be fine by PS6
We just sit
Plugged in, tuned out, Matrix sh*t
What if you just can't resist
Auto-tune it, make it fit
I can't do it, but I came through it
Like I can't sing, so auto-tune it
I might lose it, but I'll get through it
Like I can't sing, so auto-tune it
Ay, ay, auto-tune it
Ay, ay, auto-tune it
I can't do it, auto-tune it
I can't sing, so auto-tune it
Ay, auto-tune it
Just auto-tune it
Auto-tune it
Just auto-tune it
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4. |
Fine
02:33
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I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine,
I’ll be fine when I find my peace of mind
I’ll be, I’ll be, I’ll be, I’ll be
I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine on the other side
I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine,
I’ll be fine when I find my peace of mind
I’ll be, I’ll be, I’ll be, I’ll be
I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine on the other side
Thought I’d be fine on the other side of the world
Thought I’d be fine if I could find me another girl
Thought I’d be fine once I made it to that special place
Thought I’d be fine when I escaped the United States
No need to worry bout my kids getting shot by cops
No need to worry bout their pops getting locked in blocks
Cell free, apparently out the dark I made it
New slavery, mentally still incarcerated
And time after time I find
There’s no chains around my feet
But I’m far from being free
So I journey inside my mind
So I can claim the part of me
That’s so hard for me to see
I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine,
I’ll be fine when I find my peace of mind
I’ll be, I’ll be, I’ll be, I’ll be
I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine on the other side
I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine,
I’ll be fine when I find my peace of mind
I’ll be, I’ll be, I’ll be, I’ll be
I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine on the other side
Inside my mind all my demons lurking in the dark
They bide for time, trying to seep into my broken heart
Outside I’m fine, see my smile cover up the scars
Inside my mind is a minefield filled with sparks
And all I can do is try to make it through
To the clouds where there’s no strife
And baby it’s true, I wasn’t there for you
Maybe I’ll be fine on the other side of life
I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine,
I’ll be fine when I find my peace of mind
I’ll be, I’ll be, I’ll be, I’ll be
I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine on the other side
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5. |
Fantasy (Interlude)
02:33
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I’m going… I’m going out
I’m going, I’m going out of reality
I’m going… I’m going in
I’m going, I’m going into my fantasy
I’m still dumb and broke
I still love to smoke
They say all things in moderation
But I’m just a man without a nation
My history’s a mystery
I know the ancestors is missing me
So I made my world
Made my own rules
Wrote my own words
Sang my own tunes
Paid my own dues
Is it true that a dream that we share is truth
If it’s true I’ll share my dream with you
I’m going… I’m going out
I’m going, I’m going out of reality
I’m going… I’m going in
I’m going, I’m going into my fantasy
And it’s mellow ain’t it
I know you feel sedated
Dreamlike, but dream light
If you dream right you can create it
Just state it and thank it
And it will manifest
Await it then take it
No need to plan the rest
And I plan to rest, but I must confess
That I’m motionless like the reel (real) stopped
Now I reached the crest I’m afraid to spill
Like Jack and Jill on that hilltop
And I still don’t know if I’m alive or dead
Awakened or dreaming
Living in a world of angels or demons
But I know we can have anything when…
We’re going… we’re going out
We’re going, we’re going out of reality
We’re going… we’re going in
We’re going, we’re going into our fantasy
We’re going… we’re going (going, going)
We’re going (going, going)
We’re going (going, going)
We’re going (going, going)
We’re going (going, going)
We’re going, we’re going into our…
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6. |
Dogma
03:12
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Hopudoshi blow your mind out
But keep your brain intact
Sooner or later you will find out
There’s no pain in that, no pain in that
I know one and one is two, and purple’s red and blue
And if you were to ask me, I could tell you bout the moon
Cause soon it will be full, and then it will be new
The light side is beautiful, but darkness exists too
I know the dual of good and evil
I know that trees are alive and so are people
There’s an old man in the sky who’s watching peaceful
I know that I’ll never die if I pray in cathedrals
Hopudoshi blow your mind out
(Can you feel it, can you feel it)
But keep your brain intact
(Can you feel it, the spirit)
Sooner or later you will find out
(Can you feel it, can you feel it)
There’s no pain in that, no pain in that
(Can you feel it, the spirit)
I know the atheists are right to trust
Because my teachers have implied as much
Cause nothing matters but matter here
From atmos- to stratosphere
The apples were Adam’s fear
Now atoms are everywhere
And everything, that’s all there is
I know I’m just a tiny being, that’s apparent
No more asking what it means, insignificant
I know I had a lot of dreams, but that’s meaningless
It’s meaningless…
That’s all meaningless…
It’s meaningless…
It’s just…
My professor said that teachers told me lies
And I believe him cause it’s written on the slides
This time I’ll separate the how’s from the why’s (wise)
And now I’m old enough to know that we must die
Hopudoshi blow your mind out
(Can you feel it, can you feel it)
But keep your brain intact
(Can you feel it, the spirit)
Sooner or later you will find out
(Can you feel it, can you feel it)
There’s no pain in that, no pain in that
(Can you feel it, the spirit)
I know God is real, I’ve seen It
I’ve felt It, I heard It, I need It
I know eternity is not infinite time
It’s no time at all, I know the times I fall
I know heaven, I know hell, I know despair
I know hope, I know bliss, unlikely pairs
I know there’s one thing I recall
I know I know nothing at all
Hopudoshi blow your mind out
(Can you feel it, can you feel it)
But keep your brain intact
(Can you feel it, the spirit)
Sooner or later you will find out
(Can you feel it, can you feel it)
There’s no pain in that, no pain in that
(Can you feel it, the spirit)
No pain in that
(Can you feel it, can you feel it)
No pain in that
(Can you feel it, can you feel it)
No pain in that
(Can you feel it, can you feel it)
No pain in that
(Can you feel it, can you feel it)
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7. |
Reverie
02:50
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I’m here to stay, and
I’m here for life, so
Now I thank that
(uh, oh)
I’m here to stay, and
I’m here for life, so
(oh, oh)
I remember staring at the ceiling
Up late nights, couldn’t shake the feeling
That at 6 years old, I was ready for the cold
I was never carefree like the other children
Kitchen knife under the bed to use it
Ready to do it, but what if I blew it
Would it be quick, what if I hit a rib
Tonight’s the night, I’d always pledge
But I was scared of that serrated edge
I’m here to stay, and
I’m here for life, so
Now I thank that
Serrated knife, oh
I’m here to stay, and
I’m here for life, so
Now I thank that
Serrated knife
(Oh, oh, oh)
(Oh, oh)
(Oh, oh)
(Oh)
Picture a boy contemplating life - death
The universe and what’s worse - best
What’s after this, I couldn’t fathom bliss
And nothingness was worth the risk if I could have my wish
And this continued into adolescence
A troubled mind all the time, so I was bad at lessons
And gunshots on my block couldn’t do me harm
I welcomed stray slugs like hugs in my open arms
But then it all changed
I’m thankful every day
That by God’s grace
I finally found my way
And now I got my wife and kids to celebrate and
I’m glad my mom got the kitchen knives that were serrated
I’m here to stay, and
I’m here for life, so
Now I thank that
Serrated knife, oh
I’m here to stay, and
I’m here for life, so
Now I thank that
Serrated knife
(Oh, oh, oh)
(Oh, oh)
(Oh, oh)
(Oh)
I’m here to stay, and
I’m here for life, so
Now I thank my
Kids and wife, oh
I’m here to stay, and
I’m here for life, so
Now I thank my
Kids and wife, oh
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8. |
Unreal
03:36
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We’re at the top of the mountains now
Looking down at the clouds
Up at the top of the mountains now
Just looking down at the clouds
But now I’m filled with fear and doubt
That I’ll come tumbling down
Up at the top of the mountains now
Looking down at the clouds
What do you do when your dreams came true
Who you wanted to be became you
No more providence on that horizon
Grass never greener on other sides when
You’re living in your fantasy
So what’s reality now, I just can’t figure it out
Dreams made real but there’s no proof
Row down the stream that steers to truth
Don’t wake me down
Don’t break me up from this slumber
I’m flying up under
We’re at the top of the mountains now
Just looking down at the clouds
Up at the top of the mountains now
Looking down at the clouds
Looking down at the clouds
Down at the clouds
Just looking down at the clouds
Up at the top of the mountains now
Will I come tumbling down
Don’t get me wrong, I’m grateful for God’s Grace
Finally found my way from out the ash I came
But I swear I died in that car crash
Cause ever since that day it’s all gone my way
And I know the world is a mental place
Just like heaven and hell are both mental states
Every day I pray that I’m alive not late
Don’t wanna open my eyes
Don’t wanna test the fates
Don’t wake me down
Don’t break me up from this slumber
I’m flying up under
These cirrus clouds
They blanket me like a cover
They fill me with wonder
We’re at the top of the mountains now
Just looking down at the clouds
Up at the top of the mountains now
Looking down at the clouds
Looking down at the clouds
Down at the clouds
Just looking down at the clouds
Up at the top of the mountains now
Will I come tumbling down
We’re at the top of the mountains now
Just looking down at the clouds
Up at the top of the mountains now
Just looking down at the clouds
Looking down at the clouds
Down at the clouds
Just looking down at the clouds
But then I turn my head around
And see the stars abound
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9. |
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Dreamers dream
Believers keep believing
All my dreamers dream
And the believers keep believing
Dreamers dream
Believers keep believing
All my dreamers dream
And the believers keep believing
Keep dreaming even if you seem delusional
Keep dreaming even if your dream’s unusual
Keep dreaming, but be sure your dream is usable
Keep dreaming, let your passion feed the crucibles
And whatever they tell ya
Keep on dreaming forever
You can weather the weather
Whether it’s freezing or swelter
Keep on dreaming of better
Shake those worries like Curry
Keep believing in mercy
Even your demons’ll scurry
Eyes blurry, tear ducts
Cry flurries, that clear up
No hurry, no rush
Your worthy of so much
Dreamers dream
Believers keep believing
All my dreamers dream
And the believers keep believing
Dreamers dream
Believers keep believing
All my dreamers dream
And the believers keep believing
Don’t stop believing in your own dream
Don’t stop believing in the holy
Don’t stop believing, cause it’s lonely
Don’t stop believing you’re my only
One, I never dreamed our sons
Would grow so much so fast
Or I’d find love, huh
Never believed I deserved to dream
But then when I found you
I knew my dreams came true, ooh
Eyes blurry, tear ducts
Cry flurries, clear up
No hurry, no rush
Your worthy of so much
Dreamers dream
Believers keep believing
All my dreamers dream
And the believers keep believing
Dreamers dream
(Eyes blurry, tear ducts)
Believers keep believing
(Cry flurries, clear up)
All my dreamers dream
(No hurry, no rush)
And the believers keep believing
(Your worthy of so much)
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Hopudoshi Columbus, Ohio
Hopudoshi is an American rap artist who currently resides in the Philippines. His introspective rhymes offer social
commentary with a mystical bent.
Hopudoshi, Hopanova, and Hop-Leo all represent different sides of my personality. Sometimes they are in harmony and sometimes they are in conflict. The differences between them are the reason for some of my ambivalent feelings towards certain issues.
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